New year, new me or something like that bullshit.

Hello there :)


I hope you all had a fantastic Christmas! I definitely did.
Unfortunately, Im back in Cheltenham, because im apparently allergic to my cat. I did have a great time in Cardiff, including a few great nights out.

The first one was on the first Wednesday back in Cardiff. It was super great to see Hannah and Kelly. I also got to see some of the boys as the night out was for one of their birthdays. I havnt seen them in like a year so it was really nice. I then met up with Ellie and her friend and proceeded toget very very drunk in a skankhole called metros.
The next was on the Monday with Jenny and it was so great. Of course we ended up bumping into the boys again and honestly, it was such a great night. I cockblocked Gethin and he got super annoyed so I ended up trying to hook him up with someone.

Reminder to anyone:

Im not a great wingwoman.

The last was on Boxing Day with my little bitches, Jenny, Shannon, Hannah and Kelly. This, I feel was the best night out ive had in such a long time. I was very, very drunk and met a couple of boys, which, im not going to lie, was the HOTTEST boys that i've ever seen. I also did fall over. Which is such a godsend, seeing as I cant get drunk without falling over.



The reason for this blog post was to write down my new years resolutions. I know it seems really generic but I felt like I should write them on here, I havnt got many. But they probably should be followed this year.

1.
Be more happy.
This one probably gets said a lot, but for me this one probably is the most important. Last semester, I think I spent half of the time really angry, hungover or drunk. The last 2 I can deal with, the former, not so much. Obviously there were some points where I was happy, but I probably could count on one hand the few times I was REALLY  happy. Which is why my aim first 2015 is to get more happy. Whether thats to make myself happy or not.

2. Stop being such a mug.
This sounds so weird, but the people that know me will probably know that I let people I care about walk all over me. Which is probably the reason why ive been unhappy. There comes a like that people have, and A LOT of people cross that line and sometimes I feel my line gets taken advantage off.

3. Get more organized.
I am the least organized person you would ever meet. I might get things done quicker if my life was more organized.

4. Stop being so uptight.
This is one of my worst personality traits ever. I get super uptight about things that shouldnt really bother me, and I cant imagine how much it bugs people if it bugs me this much.

5. Stop being so harsh on myself.
This is a weird one. But sometimes, I think that I might get my arse into gear if I judge myself. But some of the time, it doesnt help in the slightest. In fact, it makes me feel worse. Ive been telling one of my buddies who also does this lately that it isnt a good thing, I just need to start listening to myself,

I reckon thats all for now.
Have a great new year,
Thanks for reading the past year, I cant tell you how much it means to me.
TTYL,
Kirst x

Dear 25 year old me.

Dear 25 year old Kirsten.

Currently, you are sat in bed at 2:30pm thinking about what the hell you're doing with your life.
The answer you came up with? Nothing, absolutely nothing.
You have some amazing people you have surrounded yourself with, but sometimes you need to chill out with them.
You're family are also amazing, but (Yes, there is another but) you dont contact them enough.
Uni is going alright, but you need to stop going out and getting drunk and you probably should focus on your studies.
You have met some absolute belters of friends, and right now, they're probably the only people thats keeping you going so please dont jeopardise that.
Ask for help if you need it,
Dont let people mug you off.
Stop being so nice to people that don't deserve it.
Give your attention to people that do deserve it.

Im hoping that you have done this,
If you havnt, start now.

Kirst x


Age 21.

My idea of Christmas, whether old-fashioned or modern, is very simple: loving others. Come to think of it, why do we have to wait for Christmas to do that? - Bob Hope

Hey!

This sounds super weird but in the midst of my hungover wallowing I really fancied writing a blog post. Took me so long to come up with an idea though!
However, I think that ive got a corker.
Im going to talk about my five best moments of 2014.

2014, for me has been a rollercoaster of a year. Some parts of it have been amazing and I wouldnt change them for the world, including getting to know my uni family better, getting drunk, catching up with old friends, spending time with my usual family and so on, other parts havnt been that great but, as cheesy as it sounds, new year, new memories and all that.

I really want to share my favourite parts of this year with you though, so here goes nothing.

1. Honestly, it wont be any suprise to anyone whose a regular reader of this blog that this is the first memory that goes up on here. The fact that ive just facetimed said person says a lot. One of the best things that happened this year was definitely meeting Megan and Brienne. I spent the majority of second semester with Megan last year and we have some of the greatest memories ever. Including walks to the park at stupid o' clock in the morning, jamming to awful songs in the kitchen, and staying up till 2am talking about religion and politics (I listened, as if i know anything about politics!!)
Honestly, having to say goodbye was easily the worst memory in 2014. They properly broke my heart. But Im so happy to have had the opportunity to meet these American greats and wouldnt change our time for the world.

Have a listen to this, you wont be disappointed.

2. Number two goes to my 21st birthday, along with Mcbusted. If you want to have a little read about this event, then go here
Basically, my wonderful best friend organized a meal in Harvester, and bought me the most lovely gifts ever! I then went home, where my mam had set out a load of cupcakes, and bought me a bracelet that I had asked for in january. The next day, Hannah Mason and I went to see Mcbusted, which was absolutely amazing! We got barrier for the gig, and James and Matt from Busted said happy birthday to us, and Tom Fletcher saw my boobs. It was the greatest moment ever. I dont think ive ever said this, however I REALLY fancy Tom from Mcfly. It was a bonus. I then went out with Ellie and her friend, Brad.



3. Number 3 would go to moving back in with my uni family. It was so weird over summer not living with these dickheads or even seeing them most days. So you can imagine, as soon as I saw them I freaked. In fact, I saw them as I was walking up the stairs, I squeezed Hannah and Ry so hard. It was so fantastic seeing them again. Emily and I had a conversation about what we were going to do after uni had finished and I got so upset that I wouldnt see them as much I went to find Hann and Ry and hug them. Those two, Em and Ellie mean quite a lot to me, as you can imagine.
(I  dont have a photo of us all, so have this fantastic picture, please enjoy it. Its my favourite photo right now.)



4. NYE, although technically in 2013, it ran over into 2014 so it totally counts. It was so nice to spend some time with my sluts. I wasnt actually that drunk either, and Oceana didnt repulse me, which is a shock. I also got my first NYE kiss that night, so all in all, it was a successful evening.

5. Number 5 goes to London. Ive been twice this year with 3 of my favourite people. The first trip was with Hannah and Eric. We went to Harrods and took pictures with Captain America, Selfridges and spent some time in Hyde park where we saw Kate Middleton. It was amazing. The second time was with Emily. We, again went to Harrods (no pictures with superheroes, boo) Selfridges, and took some pictures in the photo booth. I love London. Its one of my favourite ever places and I aspire to live there one day.

Ok, thats all for now folks.
Hope you enjoyed this little post.
Next one is up on Friday I believe.
TTYL,
Kirst x
P.S. Plz enjoy this festive favourite

Christmas at ST Pauls

Hi guys.

ITS ALMOST CHRISTMAS!
I dont know about you, but I havnt been this happy in a while.
Im currently sat in bed, listening to Bastille, just finished a cup of tea and I have my cat sitting at the bottom of my bed. Im back in Cardiff till New Years and honestly, I dont think ive been happier to get away from Cheltenham.

Recently, Ive been feeling a bit shit. Not ill shit, but shit within myself. Like, I probably cant do anything right. I mean, its no ones fault barr my own. Its literally just been hell. Take my advice, if someone tells you that the second year is the hardest year of uni, please believe them. All ive done within the past month is film, edit, film edit, write an essay, film, edit again, and to top it all off, im not even done.
I shouldnt be complaining, I know. Its not even the content that driving me insane, its just the amount i've had to do. I was so glad to see the back of Premiere Pro.
However, out of what i've finished im SO happy with it.

This is my promotional video to the act I've been managing for a month or so. Her name is Katie Collins and she has such an insane voice its unreal.
I think the first day that I wasnt grumpy beyond belief and actually happy was Friday, where I spent the whole day with Hannah and Emily doing Christmassy things.
We went to Gloucester first, as the Coca Cola truck was there.

We also looked around the Christmas market for a while. I can imagine Gloucester has never smelt so great. People were selling such christmas food, it was great. All you could smell was bread and pulled pork and hot chocolate and cinnamon.
We then went to Tesco because Han and Em was going to make a gingerbread house but we kind of ran out of time.

From then on, it was prep time, seeing as our house decided to do our little house christmas get together that friday. I sometimes forget how much I enjoy cooking until I get to cook a cooked dinner for my douchebag friends.
The dinner included chicken, roast potatoes/parsnips, sprouts, carrots, peas, brocolli and cauliflower. We then went on to give out secret santa presents. Of course, we're all loud mouths and the only people that didnt know who had them was Emily and Danny. It took me a lot of effort to convince Emily that I didnt have her though.
I, personally feel like I recieved the best gift I might have ever gotten. It was off Hannah. We had already agreed that we weren't getting eachother anything because of money sitch. She got me a framed picture of things to do with me. Ryan helped her sit on photoshop and think of words that reminded her of me.



I also got a present off Emily, which was unexpected. She made me pick out the nail polishes, saying they were from her cousin, then asked me for a website which sells pretty things, she got me a necklace from Earth Jewellery.



 Shes a sneaky, sneaky peach, and I couldnt thank those little fuckers enough. I also recieved a card off Ryan, which made me cry a bit. Stupid boy.

I then proceeded to drink a quater litre bottle of vodka. It was a good night.
Thats all for now,
I hope you all have a fantastic Christmas!
TTYL,
Kirst x

5 things to do when you need a break from life.

Hi guys.

As everyone knows, Christmas is coming up.. (AHHHHH!!!)
Which also means deadline days are coming up, which, as a student is terrifying. For first years, this will mean some of your first ever assignments will be due in, and you'll be rushing to finish them because, lets be real? you've spent the last Wednesday and Thursdays getting absolutely trashed and not thinking about your deadline days.
Second years will have done the same, however our assignment grades actually count and that makes us feel slightly nauseous.
I dont know about everyone else, but my first year run-ups to deadlines included:

1. staying in bed, and not wanting to face the world
2. procrastinating like a little bitch
3. getting trashed so I didnt have to think about said deadline day
4. (my favourite) run back to Cardiff.


When getting to this stage, I have decided, rather than do these things i've just gotta find some things to de-stress me. Last year the only thing that actually worked, was going home or getting drunk. This year, those things can't help. The uni have been very helpful and set deadlines spread out over christmas (Please note the sarcasm) It isnt helpful in the slightest. For my course, we have to use specific programmes on computers, like Premiere Pro and Pro Tools, which a lot of us don't have. Meaning we have to use the mac's in uni.
For one of out modules, we have to make a promotional video/music video for an artist we had to manage. This deadline is set for after Christmas, which means we've had to get out work done before going home. This fact has literally stressed me out so much. I have actually finished both videos ive had to edit, however for other people, its just a big rush.

1.
The first thing I've done to de-stress this year, is rugby. Sounds weird, but the internationals for the world cup have been on the past month, and its given me the excuse to just chill out, and scream at the welsh team for being complete donkies. It also helps the fact that the welsh team isnt terrible looking either. I mean, Jamie Roberts, Leigh Halfpenny and Sam Warburton? Absolute corkers. I've had quite the crush on Roberts since I've started watching rugby, so you can imagine my face when I found out he was playing every Tuesday. It probably doesnt help that my mum knows him either. Last summer, my mum called me down into her department, where she was stood with him. I was literally looking like shit, as I had been out the night before. So walking away, I was completely star struck, and didn't stop shaking for at least half an hour.



2. tea
I dont know how anyone can dislike tea. It calms me down a treat, whether im stressed or upset or angry, offer me a cup of tea and my mood will instantly raise. If im stressed because of uni work, I quite like to stop for like, half an hour, make myself a cup of tea and just kind of look over what ive done so far. Its good to just stop and take your mind of work, I find because you can just go back to it and re-read, and you'll realise all the mistakes you've made!

3.
Friends are also a good ploy away from your work. Im not saying to use them as a distraction. Not at all. But like I said in the previous paragraph, you need to get away from your work sometimes. Last year, i'd spend at least 3 out of 7 days drunk with Ellie, Eric, Megan, Emily ect. Just because it was a good way to de-stress, take a break, and let loose.

4.
This year, especially come up with stupid little games/ buy a board game. Ryan, Hannah, Emily and I have come up with this ridiculous game where you have to guess the song title, and artist to receive points, other games include Cards against Humanity, Monopoly or Bullshit (to british people, cheat) Its a lot of fun and might even clear your brain.

5.
Listen to one of your favourite albums or read a book. I really enjoy the both of these things, and both helps me unwind and ive been doing work all day. I quite like coming home and reading a good book, which is currently The Hunger Games. Or listening to one of my favourite albums at that time, currently, Ed Sheeran - + or Taylor Swift - 1989. Dont judge. Or much to peoples suprise, I really enjoy cleaning. It calms me. If figured that everytime my mum facetimes me or rings me, i'll be in the middle of cleaning my room (Around Emily and Hannah, who is usually a fixture in my room)


I really couldn't think of much else to put on here, but I really hope you enjoyed this post.
TTYL,
Kirst x

Giving thanks and all that

Hey there.

If you didn't know, yesterday was thanksgiving in America and although Britain doesn't tend to celebrate it, I'm pretty damn thankful for a few few things.
Thanksgiving is typically celebrated on the last Friday of November, and its a joyous day where Americans all go back to their family homes and stuff themselves silly.
I thought i'd do this post to tell you what I'm thankful for.

Number one goes to my mammy.
I probably couldn't thank her enough for everything she does for me. Obviously I wouldn't be here without her, for a start. She's my best friend and I would be completely stuck without her. As in, I probably would have exploded if I didn't have her to talk to, especially this semester. She's a wonderful person, and I couldn't have asked for any one better




Number 2, goes to my uni family.

These would include Hannah, Ryan, Emily and Ellie.
I definitely would have dropped out of uni around about a year ago without these suckers. They're like my dysfunctional family that I never asked for, but got anyway. They all have their uses, that's for sure. Ryan and Hannah are literally like the mother and father of the house and Emily and Ellie are like my nuisance little sisters. I, apparently have been named the fun aunt.. Not sure how that works out. I can't thank them enough because honestly, I wouldn't be who I am today without them. And who am I today? A completely broken, insane lady who loves her housemates very much.

Number 3 would be my education.
As much as I complain about it, University and Music and Media Management is definitely one of the main things I'm thankful for. Don't get me wrong, I definitely wouldn't recommend you take the course if you're looking to be a band manager because, I'm pretty sure half the modules I'm doing currently have absolutely nothing to do with what anyone wants to do. I mean, I don't think I need to show my apparent "creative" side to prove that I'm worthy of managing someone. However, I came to uni knowing hardly anything about the music industry, and now, well I know a lot more than I did.

Number 4? This would go to Megan E. Bloom.
This little fucker completely broke my heart, however I'm so thankful for her existence. Although, she lives like 1000 miles away, I know she's just a Face Time away, and shes helped me so much. I dont mean "help" in the regular sense. Im 100% she helped my metal state, and I cant thank her enough for that. She was always there for me, and still is. I'm honestly not even sure how much else I can say that people havnt already heard. But Megan, I love you girl.




5 is going to my Cardiff buddies
                                         Hannah, Jenny, Shannon, Lowri, Danni and Amy.

I dont see these girls half as much as I used to, and this breaks my heart. I love them as if they were my own family though. I also dont say this half as much as I should but I'm so thankful that you girls are in my life. I love you.


Last but not least.. number 6 is to all the friends that I don't talk to anymore, to all the mistakes i've made (take that how you will) THANK YOU! You've helped me more than anyone on this list. Want to know why? If i didnt realise how wrong I was before stopping talking to you, then I would still be making the same mistakes now.

Thanks for reading.
Hope you enjoyed this post.
TTYL,
Kirst x

Lets all fake it till you make it.

Hello. 

I thought i'd steal a blog post idea from my friend Emily. 
You can find said blog post here.  :)

1. "Fake it 'til you make it" (also called "act as if") is a common catchphrase that means to imitate confidence so that as the confidence produces success, it will generate real confidence"

I don't know about you, but I'm quite partial to a bit of "faking it till you make it." I mean, I don't do it all the time but quite often if you see me overreacting to something, or using bit hand gestures then 9 times out of 10 I'm a nervous wreck and I'm meant to playing it cool. I know its not me that does this. You can bet that every man and his dog gets nervous. In the industry I am currently studying to be in, its definitely not a good thing.

I remember being told by an old boss, that I get really flustered and I start making mistakes when I'm nervous, when don't think I'm good enough to be doing what I'm doing, that that's my downfall. 

A lot of people, when nervous just break down and decide that they simply cannot do the take they were set. 

I know recently, my "faking" persona has got a hell of a lot better. I mean, Over the past year or so I have had around about 5 interviews and I've gotten 4/5 of the jobs. But certain things, you'll literally just see me crumble. Especially around guys. I become a complete wreck around boys. I always say to myself, "Kirsten, if you see (insert name) today, just act cool." It never happens, I always end up making a complete tit out of myself. I know it doesn't help me but I just cant help it. 

Its the complete same with presentations. I go up to start, I try to talk about one subject, and I either start falling about my words, or start talking about something completely off topic. Why is this? I mean, what goes on in peoples brains for them to completely lose it at the most important times? 

I googled how to "fake it till you make it" (Apparently, google is a good "go-to" tool) and I'm not sure what it told me, is in any way a good idea. A lot of the things I read, basically told me to become an arrogant ass. Which im not about. But I did stumble upon one website, which I'll link here if anyone wants to have a mooch at. It basically talks about:

• Body language.

I know for a fact that know one in their right mind would take anyone seriously if they were stood with their arms crossed, or slumped down in a chair. I know the right posture gives off the vibe that you know what you're talking about. So, standing up straight, or keeping your back straight while sitting down will show people that you're serious, and you're there for business. (Or whatever that saying is.) While you're doing this if you're looking down at hands or fiddling with something while someone is trying to talk to you, you're going to look rude, aren't you? Try holding some eye contact. Whoever it is will respect you a bit more.

• How you speak.

Its going to be a bit obvious that you're stupidly nervous if you start speaking really fast. You're going to start tripping over your words, then get flustered that you've done that. Its definitely not going to make a good impression. if you've got a speech to read, ask a friend to sit with you while you practice. It might help in the long run.

• How you dress

If you dress like you feel a thousand pounds, then I feel like that's how its going to come across. Reminder that you'll only ever get out what you put in. So if you go to interviews or presentations in jeans and hoodies, get rejected or a bad grade then wonder why? then obviously you're doing something wrong. 

I probably couldn't say much else about this subject, seeing as I still have a LONG way to go before I can stop "faking it" 

I really hope you've enjoyed this blog post. 

Thanks for reading.

Kirst x

Trying to be happy.

Hey.

This is going to be a bit of a weird post.
I apologize if its not to your taste but I felt a burning desire to write it this morning.
Its about trying to make yourself happy.
This post is also going to be quite a personal one.

I saw one of my favourite bloggers writing a blog about fresh starts and stuff, which gave me the idea to write this. If you want to go and read it, shes at this link
Go and have a read, its a decent blog.
So lets get down to it.
The reason ive written a blog on "trying to be happy" is because im struggling at the moment. Really hard.
 I found a short quote on tumblr, the other day. Which I feel could describe me accurately.

"She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad, and that's important" - Marilyn Monroe

 

Ive been trying my hardest to make myself happy. Which includes getting obliterated, which didn't work out so well. If you've seen me lately, you'll have seen how messed up I look. To the point where I got asked if I was in an accident. ITS NOT AS BAD AS THAT!
I have a bit of a black eye, a stupidly bruised wrist, and a couple of other large bruises dotted around my body.
At the time, im sure I had a great time (I cant remember much of the night) however, I woke up in the morning completely miserable. I didnt really even have much of a hangover, I just wasnt happy with myself.
The same happened last monday, minus the bruises and blackouts. I realised over the weekend, I should probably stop drinking. But thinking about it, am I really going to do that? Unlikely.
So I wrote a list last night of things that potentially make me happy, even if it is for a short time and I thought I would share a few with you. If these things could help me be happy for a short period of time, im sure they can help someone else.

1. Obviously, my mum was going to number one on my list. Going home, or even speaking to her on the phone makes my mood a bit better always. It just makes me feel like I can take a breathe of relief knowing shes there, and she always will be, no matter how much I fuck up.

2. My friends. Again, they were always going to be on this list. But honestly, I did only mean a handful of friends, and if they were smart they'd know I meant them. Certain friends of mine always make me feel more relaxed when im around them, like I can just sit there quitely and listen to them jabber on about complete shit and I dont have to say a word. When im in a certain type of mood, I can only be around certain friends, who dont act like complete tools when together.

3. Singing really loudly and dancing like an idiot. If people knew me then they'd know that those 2 things come as a package with me. Its definitely uncontrollable. I cant do either, but it definitely helps me release steam. Usually, the music will be something completely ridiculous like Busted or even Abba because, as everyone knows, they're so easy to dance to. Doing this probably isnt up everyones street, but trust me, it helps so much. Just lock your door.

4. This one is going to be really shallow. I REALLY enjoy knowing that my boobs look good in a top or dress that im wearing. It sounds so stupid but its such a confidence booster. Especially because they're my most potent asset. Obviously, if it were you, you would want your best feature to look amazing. Well, thats the same with me.

5. Next one is a bit weird. I really enjoy going to work. Like, being surrounded by overly drunk people serving them drinks takes my mind off the shit that goes on in there. Its literally like an escape.

6. Having a good cry has to go on here. It sounds so weird but let me put you into a scenario. Imagine that you've had a really crappy day. You argued with your best friend, or you had a really shitty customer in work and you come home and you dont know whether you feel upset or angry. You walk into your bedroom, and you just start crying. You dont know why, you just cry. When you finish, how much better do you feel? Like, you're ready to face making up with said best friend, or you want to go into work and prove yourself. It feels so much better.

7. Lazy days are the greatest. I have a lot of things on this list that ties in with this.

• A good cup of tea
• Fresh bedding
• A bubble bath
• Reading a good book. (Im currently reading Harry Potter)
• Freshly painted nails
• Watching disney films
• Sleeping

8. Being at uni, I have decided, is a large factor in me having a good day. Especially the rare occurrence when I have a full day and theyre interesting lectures.
EG. Last monday, Ellie, Emily and I turned up for our E-Marketing lecture expecting a really shocking lecturer we have for this module. Which we got. However, she planned a really good lecture. It was all about online trust and what types of websites and people we should trust on the internet. This lead to talking about a blogger/youtuber who has recently become big, Zoella. The discussion was about whether people should trust her judgement on beauty products.

9. Im going to put two in one again because they both link. For my 21st birthday, Megan gave me a photo frame with  her favourite photo on Her, Eric and I in, and honestly, looking at it makes me smile because we were all a bit drunk and its such a lovely photo. It basically summed us 3 up last year

leading on from that, FaceTiming Megan is also on my list. If you didnt know, Megan and I were really close last year and it was one of the hardest things to do, saying goodbye when she went back to America. It just makes me feel a lot better knowing shes just a facetime away.

10. This is the most important, I feel. Being around people that are happy improves my mood tenfold. I find that happy people are ALWAYS optimistic. Negative vibes are the absolute worst when you aren't in a great mood. I find that positivity can raise happiness levels quite a bit. So surrounding yourself with happy people can have an affect on your life.

I know trying to cut things out of your life that makes you unhappy is really hard. Ive lived it, im STILL living it. Honestly, just work out what it is that makes you unhappy and start from there. I havnt actually made my angry/sad list just yet, but they will be made and I will start cutting the crap out of my life.
I found this website to help me with number 10, its helpful.

I really hope you enjoyed this blog.
Over the past few posts I have put up, I found that the more posts that were a bit more emotionally attached to me gets a lot more reads. So im going to try and do that.
Thank you so much for reading this.
It means a lot.
TTYL,
Kirst x

Things that make me, me

Hi guys,

I read a blog from my wonderful friend Emily, and Im stealing her idea. You can find said blog, here

Here goes:

Im most commonly known as the big boobed friend. Honest to God, like someone on my course came up to me last time we were out and told me that she met someone I knew, however he described me as the short, big boobed girl. I've come to terms with the fact that I will forever be associated with boobs.

I sing quite often, even though I cant sing for shit. Its one of my favourite things and I cant remember the last time I went a whole day without singing. My housemates HATE it. Pretty sure ive ruined about 5 songs for them since ive moved in because I sing the same things constantly. I actually ruined Rude - Magic for everyone, now they get super pissy with me now.

I really like a drink, every now and again. I reckon ive drunk atleast every week since moving in. Maybe even twice a week. Drink of choice: double vodka, lemonade and lime. Try it.

I live for make up, and hair products, and skin products, and all things girly. Right now, i would give my right arm for some high brand foundation and another naked pallette. So if anyones feeling generous, you know where to send them!

My friends are usually the only thing that will keep me going a lot of the time (You can tell that I think a lot of them from reading this blog) but I probably wouldnt be anything with out them and my mumma.


Thats majority of it.
I might do a longer one over the weekend.
Have a fantastic halloween,
TTYL,
Kirst x

Heroes

Hi guys.

For this blog, I thought i'd write about something more close to home. Literally. The reason for this blog post is because on the 29th is 12 years since my dad died.

I'm going to tell you about my hero.
Cathy Bryan, aka my mother.

My mother is honestly, my rock, and my best friend. Shes also the main reason why I want to do well in university, apart from the obvious. She is the strongest woman I have ever met and will ever meet.

12 years ago, when I was 9 my father died of cancer. Obviously, losing someone is hard, but could you imagine losing the love of your life, and the father of your two children?
Personally, im not sure how I would be able to cope. However she did, and managed to be an amazing mother.
I also dont think I would have turned out so motivated to live up to such a great woman, and I feel lucky to have her in my life.

Mum, you're amazing. Please never change.
I love you.

I feel like maybe this blog type should be passed on, so i'm going to ask Emily and Hannah to write about their heroes.

Thats all for now.
Im going to try and upload more regularly, seeing as I only have 2 days in uni this year, (the pain)
TTYL.
Kirst x

10 things to make your life a little bit easier in university.

Hi guys.

I thought thus post was a little bit overdue seeing as im now in second year.
I thought i'd do a list of things that might make uni life a bit easier if you're struggling.
God only knows that I struggled through first year. I'm not going to lie, im struggling a lot this year aswell, and there are definitely things that make me feel better, even if its only a little bit.

1. a strong friend group.

I honestly dont think I would have stayed in uni last year if I didnt have the friends that I gained. Especially Hannah. Everytime I mentioned dropping out, the only thing she would say is "No you arent." I wasnt allowed any other say in the matter. She also always knows what to say to me if im struggling, which is why a solid, best friend is a necessity. But, i'd also say you need a strong friend group. Ryan, Megan, Emily, Eric and Ellie also helped cheer me up if I was down, even if they didnt know I was upset. Its exactly the same this year. 

2. Your family.

Whether you've moved away from your family or stayed in the same house, I find that if im struggling, half an hour on the phone to my mam will always make me feel better. Again, like Hannah, she always knows what to say. She was my rock last year, and will always be there.

3. Photos.

I know it sounds absolutely absurd, but I dont feel like I ca be comfortable in a place that I have to stay for a specific amount of time. So, in halls the first year, and in my house this year, I have photos pinned up of my friends and me, and my family. Majority of them are piss take photos because if im upset, I can look at them and just laugh at memories.

4. A good cup of tea.

Im very sorry if you, as a reader does not enjoy tea. However, its my "go-to" thing for comfort. If one of my housemates is upset, my first thing to try is a good cup of tea. Its the best thing to cheer people up, and I know it definitely helps me.

5. A good box of tissues.

I understand that we are students, and that we should be scrimping all the money we can for nights out, and maybe food. However, a box of tissues is necessary. Whether it be because you are ill, or you just need a good cry. Just buy them and trust me ok?

6. Alcohol.

Come on, You knew this would have been a pointer in this list.. Alcohol, I feel, helps bond people. Like, imagine if, as freshers, you didnt go out and get wrecked with your housemates. I think it would have been forever awkward. Within the first 2 weeks, Eric was trying to coax Hannah and I off the floor outside Jack Wills because we didnt want to get up. That is one of Eric's "stories" to explain why drunks are such a nightmare.

7. A spotify playlist.

Always come prepared with a playlist and an extensive knowledge of music. My flat was so ridiculously varied, and I now know lyrics to songs I never thought I would. E.G - Fall Out Boy, Cheers Hann!

8. A lot of pillows and an extra blanket/throw/a onesie

University will get extra cold. Its honestly advisable to make sure you have an extra blanket, because the heating in Halls was shocking. Comfort, is also a necessity for when in extremely drunk/hungover/ill/upset.  I love to cocoon myself in a load of cosy things.

9. A notebook/journal

I dont know about anyone else, but I find I tend to bottle things up quite a lot. To the point where, sometimes, I tend to get overly angry. Recently, I have started to write things down. Honestly, It has made me feel so much better. Like, just after ive written it, I get SUPER angry. But in the morning, I just feel a lot clearer about things. It might not be everyones cup of tea. But if you're like me, then just try it.

10. An open mind

This is the top priority for uni. You're going to meet a LOT of different people and although you may not be used to people like them because of your friendship group at home, or the previous year. But sometimes they may just suprise you. I have met so many great people since coming to uni and I honestly feel like ive grown as a person because of them.

Thanks for reading this blog, I know its a bit different from my usual ones.
TTYL,
Kirst x

Foam parties and flat mates.

Hi there.

Hannah did a blog the other day, where she described all of her new housemates, which did include me. I thought it was a great idea, and that I havnt really introduced people who read this blog to some people that I live with now.

A few things have happened since my stay sober blog post. Including a hell of a lot of pranking. Usually to Ellie, but most recently, the pranking has spread.

On Friday, my lovely friend Jenny came up to Cheltenham for the first time since I came to uni! It was great. I loved seeing her and having a catch up because I havnt really spoken to her for about month. We went shopping with Emily and Danny. Danny needed new skinny jeans because his ripped his in a lecture.

On Thursday, everyone went out, and because I didnt want to be left out, I went out. Of course, I had a drink. Im not proud of myself. But from now on, I definitely will NOT be drinking.
I didnt drink a lot, but a couple of jagerbombs and vodka cokes were consumed. Around 1am, Emily and I decided to leave because propaganda isnt fun when you arent drunk. We walked down to the high street with Georgia and Eric. Half way through, Georgia mentioned that he was the only one in his society that hadnt ripped his shirt. then tried to rip it as a joke. Emily and I cant take a joke, we ripped the front and the back, then tied it together like a toga.

We then made our way to V, because we thought that Ryan would be there. No such luck. What we did find, however, was a foam party for free. We spent about 15 minutes there and came out absolutely soaking. We then made our way back to props, which we got in free for, for the second time that night.

Nothing else has really happened to be honest.
Now, Im going to start talking about my stupid housemates.

First off is Hannah.

Where there is a Kirsten, there is a Hannah. Obviously I was going to live with this little bitch. Who else would tell me when I was doing something stupid and wrong and make sure it was done right? Im so glad im living with this one. It made me sad to be away from her over summer, and I missed her a lot!



This is Ryan, Again, obviously I was going to be living with chump. Hes like my brother, and has a heart of gold. I would dare people not to get along with this knob. Ryan is currently working in the same place as me so clearly I spend a lot of time with him. He's also very funny, which is why we keep him.







This lovely girl is Emily and I think she might be my right arm. Honestly, I dont think Ive had a day away from her since moving in. She's on my course and is one of the most sarcastic people ive ever met. She's borderline more sarcastic than Hann, which is a very hard thing to beat.

Ellie is a fellow Cardiff girl, and honestly hasnt got a nasty bone in her body. I have so much love for this girl. She's also on my course, and is a super bad influence. One thing I have learnt about her is that she is the laziest person that ive ever met. A couple of days ago, She  didnt wake up till 5pm, and even then it was because Em and I woke her up.

Here is a new addition to this blog. He is Daniel (Danny) We keep him because he is kind of obsessed with Harry Potter. 1 fact about this douche, he hardly ever has a full outfit on. Like, he'll come in and immediately take off his shirt. Its slightly weird but none of the girls complain.

Last but not least, this is Stephen. Or Stavros for all intents and purposes. He is super weird, but accepted as weird. He fits in well with this house, as we are all very broken. He does a fantastic Stitch impression, this is why we keep him.

Thats it for now.
My next one, I feel could be a bit sad.
TTYL,
Kirst x

Staying sober

Hi guys,

After a very messy night full of things I probably shouldnt have done, and hating myself for them. My housemates and I have decided to do Stay Sober for October.

Although this does have ulterior motives, like alcohol not giving me unneeded courage to do things that I will and do regret the morning after. The others and I have probably had people that have passed away or suffered from cancer, so raising money for not drinking seems like a good idea.

Im not sure if the others have had people if their life that have had cancer, but personally, someone very close to me has died from it and it has affected my family's life in more ways than one. Throughout my adult life, ive only ever given the odd couple of pence to people with charity buckets or did the selfie thing. So this is a big thing for me.

In my next blog post, im going to explain how cancer has affected my housemates and my life. But for now, im going to leave you with the link where you can donate however much you wish

Go Sober

Thats it for now.
Over October, im going to try and upload atleast 3 times a week aswell.
TTYL,
Kirst x

“Sometimes crying or laughing are the only options left, and laughing feels better right now.” - Veronica Roth

Hello,

I just thought i'd write an update on my first week in Cheltenham.
so far, Im really enjoying living with the majority of the people im sharing with.
Honestly, I havnt spent one night alone since ive been back. Whether im working, in my room watching a film with Hann and Em or in the kitchen with everyone playing Cards Against Humanity and having a few drinks.

I mentioned in my last blog post that I came up early because I had a trial shift in a nightclub. Well, I got the job and because of that, my legs are bruised as hell.
Behind the bar, they have ice buckets and bins that I keep walking in to. Its not like I can even stop to check to see if im bleeding or anything because its so busy.

Since moving in, im suprised I havnt got abs of steel thats how much ive laughed. I honesly forgot how much Hannah, Ryan, Emily and Ellie make me laugh. And to add to that, Danny is so freaking funny. Like, he comes up with the most weird crap ever, but it just adds to the weirdness thats already in the house.

The other night, Hann and Em were in my room and we were talking about random crap that wouldnt make sense to the average human being, and somehow we came onto stranded presents, which turned into talking about Emily having 74 cats. We worked out that for Emily to have 74 cats by 19, she would have to take in 4.9 cats every year since she was 4. Which meant that every 5th cat would have a bit of tail missing. This lead on to us talking about every family having 2.5 children in the househouse. And seeing as it was us, we started talking about a human actually only being half a human (legs, or a top half)
The amount of times ive threatened to move out is ridiculous.

I thought I would do a 25 random questions tag..

1. What is one of your biggest dreams?
I would love to travel all over the world,  America, China, Africa,
Europe. I'd also like to settle down and have a sprog.

2. Name three things that are physically close to you.
My super soft cushions from Asda, my Iphone, and  my throw.

3. What’s an ideal Sunday for you?

Having a lie-in, staying in my pyjamas all day, spending time with my family and friends, having a beasty cooked dinner and watching a few girly films.

4. Do you drive? If so have you crashed?
Dont drive.

5. What time did you wake up this morning?
8:20am

6. What’s one thing in your closet that you cannot live without?
My jumpers. Honestly, theyre a staple!

7. What was the last movie you saw?
Hann, Em and I watched Princess and the Frog

8. What does your last text message say?
"You're bloody cat keeps biting my toes under the duvet" from my mam

9. Something physical that stands out?
Boobs.

10. Have you ever been to a different country?
Spain and France. Im not very well travelled.

11. Do you like sushi?
It's the best.

12. What’s a song you secretly love to blast and belt out when you’re alone?
Let it go - Idina Menzel, or What I go to School for - Busted

13. Have you ever taken medication to help you fall asleep faster?
 Furthest Ive gone is hayfever tablets, Im on such a high dosage that im not allowed to take sleeping tablets.

14. How many siblings do you have?
A brother.

15. How would you describe your style?
Comfy or lazy.

16. How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
22, getting old

17. Do you wear contacts or glasses?
Nope! Great vision me.

18. Do you color your hair?
Sometimes, recently my hairs gone really dead though, so no more experimenting. I put  blonde ombre in it last year, and currently I have ginger ombre.

19. Tell me something you are planning to do today.
University.

20. What’s the drink you always order at Starbucks?
 It depends on what time of the year it is. Winter - Mocha latte, Summer - Orange refresha

21. What did you want to be when you were little?
Oh God, various things. It went from a police officer, to a pilot, to a dance teacher, to a fashion designer

22. What’s a beauty rule you preach, but never actually practice?
Always moisturise
23. Have you ever had an all-nighter?
Closest ive gotten is like 6am.

24. Can you taste the difference between Pepsi and Coke?
Yes! Pepsi is fizzier!

25. What quote/phrase do you live your life by?
Things change and friends leave but life doesnt stop for anybody.


Thats it, folks.
Hope you enjoyed it.
TTYL,
Kirst x

Guess whos back?

Hi guys,

IM BACK IN UNIVERSITY!
Well, not quite. I start lectures back on the 22nd, however i've moved back to Cheltenham, and its so nice to be back with my buddies. I've missed them quite a bit.
As soon as I opened the door, all I heard was KIRSTEN.
I walked up the stairs with whatever I was carrying, and was about to run and just on Hannah, when a wild Ryan appeared. So obviously I gave him a quick hug then ran to Hannah.

It honestly was horrible leaving my mam and baby cat (Belle) though. Im going to miss them quite a lot.
The way I explained it to Em, was that Ive already had a year at university, so why should I be going back for another year? It seems really weird, and not at all right.

So after id moved all my stuff in and gone food shopping with mammy, Hannah, Ryan and I went to Papparitos. It was amazing. Honestly, I had what I always have. Never actually change my order. We drove passed Paps last week, when me and my mum dropped a bit of my stuff off earlier last week, and I rememebered how great it was. We also went to Primark to grab some hangers and a difuser. I bought the coconut and vanilla cream one because I know Hann had had it last year, and it smelt amazing.
No such luck, you cant even smell the bugger.
Hannah then went to work and Ryan and I sat in my room and just caught up on what we'd both missed over summer.

Yesterday, we went to the best cake shop ever.
After obviously using the new shower. Its weirdddddd!!
I turned one knob, and it didnt do anything,
turned the other one and it came on, but freezing cold. So I just assumed that the first knob was temperature (I was right) and turned that up all the way.
I thought it was a perfect temp, but obviously not seeing and a bit later, Ryan went in and it near enough scolded his head.

Then Hannah, him and me went to Patisserie Valerie, and I had a lemon cheesecake which I was super disappointed with..

Not because it wasnt delicious, because it was.. It just wasnt very lemony, like, I paid £5 for it.. least it could be is a bit more lemony.

We then went to waitrose, which was a new experience for Hann and Ry as they informed me while we were in there.I love Waitrose, its super expensive for what they sell, but they do sell exclusive things like what we went in there for.

Theres a company called Pots & Co, who make little desserts in ceramic pots and theyre so yummy. I first heard about them in a vlog from Zoella, who had bought a load of them in her videos, and she said they were really good. So I was curious and knew Cheltenham had a Waitrose, so I dragged them down to see if they sold them.
They did.
Ryan and me ended up buying one each.
Ry got a sticky toffee pudding, which came in a pink ceramic pot, and I bought a salted caramel and chocolate mousse type thing which came in a blue ceramic pot. It was yum.

Honestly, for the rest of the day we just spent chilling and talking about random shit. Han and me went to pick Emily up in her cute little car. We also took a trip to Homebase to look for Venus Fly Traps. but not any old Venus fly traps. One called a mimosa thing, according to google. It doesnt actually close its mouth thing, if you stroke its leaves, it goes to sleep.. which is a little less creepy.

I also had a trial shift at V club yesterday, which I think went well, although I broke the ice box with my boobs, which was embarresing as shit.

Thats all for now,
I'll update as the week goes on.
TTYL,
Kirst x

Emily, I will kill you.

Hello there.

2 blog posts in a week, arent you lucky?
Basically, Emily (http://something-like-emily.blogspot.co.uk) has tagged me in this stupid post, and im bored, so im going to do it.

Its called 12 personal questions.

1) What do you order at Starbucks?
In the summer, Valencia orange cooler. In the winter, Mocha latte.

2) One thing in my closet you cant live without?
Scarves, or jumpers. I live in those suckers.

3) What's one thing most people don't know about you?
I get really bad anxiety if I know that change is going to happen/if its happening

4) Name one thing you want to do before you die.
Get married and have a sprog maybe. Either that or travel the world.

5) What's one food you cannot live without?
Cheese!

6) What quote/phrase do you live by?
"Things change and friends leave and life doesnt stop for anybody" Which is why its tattooed on me. If someone doesnt want to be in my life, theres nothing I can do.

7) What is your most listened to song on Itunes?
Its a cover of "Dont you worry Child" by Kingsland 

8) What kind of style would you define yourself as having?
Comfy, i reckon. 

9) Favourite number?
9, ironically

10) Two hobbies?
Reading and drinking

11) Two pet peeves?
Overly grumpy people, and people who think too much of themself

12) Guilty pleasure?
I enjoy a good teddy bear

Thats all, folks
This was quite hard post to write but not because I couldnt think of the answers. Belle was behind the laptop lid, hitting the keyboard the little bitch.

Hannah, Megan and Ashleigh, your turn.
TTYL,
Kirst x

Long time no blog.

Hello there, people of the internet.

I honestly cannot remember the last time I wrote a blog post, so I thought i'd write one tonight.
Im not sure what to write about though.
I'm going to tell you about my recent trip to Bristol, and the fact that I have new job. But other than that, i havnt a jar of glue.
I even googled what to write about. I know thats lame.

It gave me a list of ideas though.
- last 10 things I googled
- top 10 products im wishing for right now
- 10 things to be happy about
- 10 things I value about my best friend

Honestly, I thought they were all such great ideas that im going to do them all in this one blog.

Over the past couple of weeks, my life has gotten a bit busy. I started my job in House of Fraser. (yes, im back there) and its made my life a lot less boring. I felt like I was going crazy with nothing to do, which i had done seeing as I finished my first year at the beginning of May, and I love it. Maybe not the early mornings, but actually getting home and being tired because ive actually done something.
Im in Fashion Accessories, which is a lot different to working with packaged food, or clothes, which ive done previously. Theres also something to do constantly, whether its putting on promotions, putting out stock, or just cleaning shelves. As much as I love the long hours, I cant wait to get home to my bed at the end of the day! Favourite part!

The passed weekend, I went to Bristol with Jenny and Danielle to see a band that I have previously mentioned, Kingsland. They did a tour to promote their new single, Dirty Dancer.
Honestly, although the venue was HORRENDOUS, they had too many support acts and all the little fan girls gave me a headache, it was the best I had seen them perform.
It was also so nice to see them again. One band member hugged me so hard and told me how much he had missed me.
I know how it must seem to people that dont like boybands, or arent really big fans of anything.
That they dont really mean it? That they probably dont even remember me?
Itsw true, they probably dont remember me and they probably dont mean what they say, but it does mean a lot to me when the band say this sort of stuff to me, because Ive invested a lot of time into being a fan previously.
Me and the girls also went to see them at a radio station in Swansea the next morning, and I asked them to sign the set list that I had managed to steal off the tour manager. They decided to ruin their signatures and destroy a name of one of the songs.
It now says "She's cumming."
I got pushed by one of the boys and almost went home with his hat. He realised I had it though.
It was also so nice to see some of the people that I havnt seen in nearly a year, and meet some new people. Thats one of the things I miss about going to gigs.

Last 10 things I googled.

- Ashton Irwin
- Recording studios in Cardiff
- Cineworld
- How to stop flying on Minecraft PE
- HDMI cables - from laptop to TV
- Wave FM Swansea postcode
- Canary Swing
- Bobble bottles
- Buzzfeed
- Anthony Hopkins

10 products i'm wishing for right now

- Urban Decay naked palette
- Benefit porefessional primer
- Eco tools brush set
- Milani Baked Bronzer
- Body Shop BB cream
- Clinique chubby stick (its a lipgloss!!)
- Nars blush palette
- Soap and Glory liquid eyeliner
- Coconut oil
- Anything from Bourjois!


10 things to be happy about

- Knowing I have a new book to start
- Being at home with my mam.
- Knowing that I havnt really got much free time over the next 3 weeks.
- Being a month away from starting uni again (Actually miss it)
- Having seen a load of my friends the past week
- Baby cat.
- Being that much closer to seeing my friends again after the summer
- Think im seeing Jenny on Sunday, always a good thing.
- Im about to go and make myself a cup of tea
- Im skyping Megan tomorrow!!

10 things I value about my best friend.

- Shes practically like a sister to me.
-Although I havnt known her for a long time, she knows most things about me
- She understands my sarcasm
- She has the same taste in books as me. (always important)
- She can make me laugh, even when im most upset
- Shes quite smart, therefore she's quite handy to have around
- She knows how to drink
- If im doing something stupid, she'll be right next to me
- Shes one of the those people that you can sit in a room in silence, and it wont be awkward in the slightest
- I love her a lot, and im so glad shes in my life.

Ok, thats all for now.
It does say that im starting uni again soon,
which means I will be uploading more frequently, seeing as this is a blog about my uni life, now my summer.

Thanks for reading.
TTYL,
Kirst x

Summer is here.. Unfortunately.

Hi guys!

I know I havnt posted much recently but that literally because I havnt known what to say. Thats not because nothing has happened, its simply because I hadnt known how to put what I wanted to say in words. So i'm not going to.
I'm just going to let everyone know what ive been up to, and then tell people my 5 top summer tunes, and my reading list for these next couple of months.

Sounds good enough, right?

When I returned from Cardiff after my birthday, I did nothing. Ry left the Sunday after I got back, which wasn't nice.
Ellie and I also worked this pretty kickass festival called Wychwood, which takes place in Cheltenham every year.
We were asked to work a total of 16 hours over a course of 3 days in return for a ticket which is a pretty sweet deal. However, they hired too many volenteers, so only ended up working 5 hours. We got to see some amazing artists, including Newton Fawkner, Bad Manners, and The Boomtown Rats. It was so crazy knowing that Ellie, Hannah and I were that close to Sir Bob Geldof. It was one of the best experiences ive had since being at university so far.
While I was back, Hannah and Eric was finishing off their final project, which I keep mentioning taking up a load of their time. They finally finished it, and its crazy good. In fact, they have made a kickstarter because they're looking to put it in some film festivals, i'll stick a link at the bottem of this blog post in case anyone wants to have a look!
Tuesday just gone, Hannah, Eric and I went on a little trip to London.
It was great.
All except the wake up at 4am. I honestly think it wiped us out for the rest of the day, especially because some of the pricks that live below us decided to wake us both up at 1/2am and we didnt get back to sleep.
But once we were there and had coffee we were both fine.
We took a trip to Harrods, which was freaking FANTASTIC. I think I drooled over all the clothes and shoes that they sold there. We also walked around Covent Gardens, visited Piccadilly Circus and Trafalgar Square. We had a look down Oxford Street, which also meant we had a look in Selfridges where Hannah and I bought hipster water that we had seen on Tumblr, and Instagram. We also popped into the Disney shop, (the biggest I had seen) and I ended up buying a little alien teddy from Toy Story as my new travel companion.
We then proceeded to spend about an hour and a half in Hyde Park lying down enjoying the sun when a certain Duchess of Cambridge drove passed us.
The next day I moved out of Regency. It was a sad, sad moment for me. As the week before that, all I had done was talk about memories from beginning of freshers and the rest of the year. All I kept thinking
about was how I would never have met the people I had if i hadnt got into these halls and how great of a year ive had.

When I'd got home, I managed to persuade my mum to get a cat!
Meet Belle.

Nothing else has really happened.

Reading list:

Cecelia Ahern - How to fall in love.
George R.R Martin - Dancing with Dragons pt 1/2

Thats all I have so far, but there will be more added.

Summer tunes.

Kiesza - Hideaway

Ed Sheeran - Sing

I recommend checking the video for this out.

Mcfly - Star girl

Pharrell Williams - Happy

David Guetta - Bad

And Im going to add another song because it deserves all the recognition possible.

John Legend - All of Me

Ok, thats all for now.
Hope you enjoyed.
heres that link for my buddies kickstarter.
H.M.S Scarlet

TTYL,
Kirst x