Ten things im trying to accept.

Hello.

Told you i'd be back with a new blog post over the weekend, didn't I?

I feel like this blog is slowly turning into one of those self help blogs and i'm not sure i'm ok with that. However, this is just because its coming to the end of the semester, and technically this is meant to be a blog about university.

Anyway, I thought i'd do a blog post about some things i'm currently trying to accept about life.

1. Not everything is going to go your way. 
2. Not every guy is going to like you. You just have to find a guy that likes you for you.
3. Its ok sometimes to think about yourself. If you think you deserve a new pair of £40 Topshop jeans, then just do it. God knows that a pretty new pair of jeans makes me so happy.
4. People will talk about you. Whether its good things or bad things. Thats life and thats ok. It doesn't mean they love you any less. 
5. People have good days and bad days. Just because someone has snapped at you, doesn't mean its your fault. They could just be having an awful day. You've just got to try and be there. They may need a friend more than you need to not be shouted at. Similarly, if someone does go at you for no reason whatsoever, 8 times out of 10, the reasons aren't your fault. 
6. Don't ever change for anyone. If someone is going to love you, it should be for you, not for someone who they think you are.
7. There is nothing better than staying in bed, listening to cheesy music with a cup of tea and a good book. 
8. Its not your job to keep people happy. Trust me, its impossible. Look after yourself before anyone else.
9. Its completely fine to disagree with someone. If you dont agree with someones opinion of something, don't feel like you should stay quiet about it. If you feel the need to disagree, then do it!!!
10. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. So what if you've gained an extra couple of pounds? What does it matter that you've had a break out on your forehead? This doesn't make you any less beautiful and you should NEVER let anyone tell you any different. Being told you aren't beautiful doesn't make you an awful person, it makes the other person awful.

Thats it.

TTYL,

Kirst x

5000 reads and finishing second year.

Whats up, what up, what uppppppp!

This blog post is in aid of reaching 5000 reads, but also because after Thursday my second year will finally be done. 

I'm not going to lie, this year has been hard. 

Work wise, and living wise. 

I've always been told "second year is the hardest, you need to knuckle down and get working"

I never took it seriously, so obviously i'm sat here now, lacking the motivation to even start my last assignment. So what did I decide to do? Reminisce on the past year.

Obviously ive just said the work load was ridiculous and its also made me hate the human race more than anyone can imagine. However, it's also made me love it a bit more. Contradictory, I know. 

Last year, Emily, Ellie and I got told that people thought we hated everyone because we never spoke to anyone. God knows thats changed.

I think this is the first year of my entire life where i've actually made an effort to talk to people that im surrounded by and I'm quite proud of that fact. Not only have I met some absolutely fantastic people this year, I can now class a select few of them as good friends. I'm hoping if those people read this, they'll realise that i'm on about them.

I also became a part of a society, which I actually really enjoy. I've had the chance to listen and to get to know some of the most amazing musicians. 

Although I can't wait to get away from Cheltenham for the summer, I'm gonna miss my Chelt family so much. Im also very eager to move into my new flat next year. 

I think we already have some pretty sweet ideas, and I GET A DOUBLE BED! 

Next year is going to be my last year in university. 

How mad is that?

I can honestly remember the days where:

1. I visited the university for my applicant day.  That was the first day I met Emily.
2. I actually got into university. I screamed the house down.
3. I moved in. 

Its been such a weird couple of years, and i'm still not sure how I feel about them. Obviously I've met some of the most lovely people, grown as a person and learn to become at least a tiny bit independent. But a part of me still wonders what I would be doing if I never came to uni, if I never moved to Cheltenham. Would I be the person I am now?

Guess I'll never find out. 

Thats is for now.

My next post will more than likely be on the weekend to tell you about my birthday!

TTYL, 

Kirst x

Im getting old.

Hey :-)

I need to stop going doing this.

By doing this, I do mean deciding to start an essay then remembering I have a blog.

The other day whilst walking home from propaganda I realised that in two thursdays time I'm going to be 22. This is terrifying for me.

22 is that age where you actually have to start acting like an adult and I realise that I don't actually do that because although I should be in that stage where i'm looking for somewhere to live on my own, with a full time job and looking to be in a relationship rather than just messing around because thats what other 22 year olds do, right?

I was thinking, even if im not looking to live on my own, if im not in a full time job, and im not ready to be a girlfriend.. What should I be doing?

Thats what birthday's are about, i'm pretty sure. realising that things should change from last year, because you're now a year older. 

I could go on about how I'm going to stop drinking so much. How i'm going to start eating a healthy, balanced diet. How i'm gonna start to improve my brain because lets be real, that DEFINITELY needs improving. But lets be real here, how many times have I said that and not done it.

I still drink just as much, i'm never going to stop eating shit while i'm in uni and my brain is going to stay just as silly. So what can I do?

The age old question, how can I improve myself?

I could go on to say my usual things, that make me look like Im extremely hard on myself, these ones:

1. Im going to stop judging people
2. How i'm going to try to be nicer
3. How i'm going to do more for other people, rather than myself.

Honestly, these ones are the first ones that came to mind, just because they're probably the easiest. Ive decided that these ones are probably more worth my time and effort.

• Stop being a mug, especially this month. As some of you know, May is deadline month. All I can say is that I am suffering. So bad. I am hardly sleeping, being in uni nearly every day, along with work, so my sleeping pattern, for less of a better phrase, is fucked and my diet is pathetic. I have literally no energy for nothing, so when I have time to myself, I need it. I need to learn the word no is what im trying to say.
• I need to start looking after myself better.  From the last paragraph you read, clearly im not good at this. So over the summer, im going to join the gym and just try to start being healthy. I also need to start looking after my head aswell. Without sounding like a complete attention whore, I keep having panic attacks whilst in clubs. I almost had one on Thursday, which is mainly why I left at 1:30am.. 
• I also need to tell people when I feel they're wrong. Recently, I have come to realise that I'm made out to be the douchebag in quite a few situations. I need to start arguing my case rather than let people walk all over me. 

I think thats it for now.

Hope you enjoyed this little piece of procrastination.

Hope a good week. :-)

TTYL,

Kirst x

P.S.. This picture has absolutely nothing to do with the post but at the moment, this is exactly how im feeling. Because apparently its not ok for me to judge guys on how good I think they look, but its ok for them to stare at my boobs during a conversation with me. 

:You go Lisa Kudrow.