3 things I know to be true; I need help with life.

Hi guys.

Its that time of the month where I do those dreaded "Three things I know to be true"

This months ones are probably going to be more uni related.

3 Things I know to be true.

• I am the ultimate procrastinator. 

I have SOOOO much freaking work due in over the next week and by the title of this section, you can guess what I've been doing. Procrastination. I spent 5 hours the other day cleaning. Not just my room, but the kitchen and the bathroom. They did need to be done, but I honestly only cleaned them to get out of doing my 4000 word essay due in on Tuesday. Doing work that I know will take me forever is my worst nightmare. Also, I don't care very much for this module. It is LAME! 

I have started my other essays, its just this one I'm struggling with, so hard. 

• I need to stop judging people so much

Being a judgemental little bitch is going to come back to bite me on the ass one of these days. I don't mean to be, it just happens. Its usually people I know as well. Im an awful person and I've come to terms with this. I am trying super hard to correct this about myself, its just proving to be quite hard. 

I realised this the other day when someone actually realised that I judge them quite hard. At this point, I was aware that I had done it, what I hadn't realised that I'm quite obvious with my judgements. If anyone ever feels like I judge them, Im really sorry. I am learning slowly. 

(I feel like, at this point, I'm starting to sound like someone from Mean Girls. You know that bit where they all stand on a stage and tell people what they've done wrong?)

• I need to tell people that I appreciate them more

I am 100% sure that people know how much I appreciate them however I feel like letting them know a lot more is necessary. As some of you know, I have an accidental tendency to be a complete bitch, distant and clingy at separate intervals. The people around me put up with my awful personality and for that I am so grateful. Sometimes, I forget to tell those people. So, if you know that I mean you. Thank you! I owe you a massive hug. 

Thats it. I know its a bit of a short one.

Again, this is another form of procrastination. 

Thanks for reading. 

TTYL,

Kirst x

Drowning.

Hi guys. :-)

I thought i'd do a blog post on what's been happening the past week or so.

• The last time I uploaded something like this was easter so since then

I went home. It wasnt for very long but it was nice to see my mum and brother nevertheless. I took Hannah and Emily down with me and went out which wasnt the best idea ive ever head. Emily and I went to propaganda the night before, so we were both shattered and Hannah wasn't feeling great. However, the next day we went and got 5 guys which definitely was the best idea ever. We also met a really nice bloke on the night out, who reminded us severely of Ryan. His name was Sam, and was a 31 year old doctor. I mean he also had an absolutely lovely face, but that is besides the point.

• We went to see Age of Ultron. I wont leave any spoilers here because I'm sure i'll get murdered brutally. Just know that it was freaking great and so worth going to see. It's probably not even necessary to see the first Avengers film, even though you should because that is just as good. It was also a really good day, just to clarify. Hannah, Ryan, Emily and I went to play pool first, and we found out that Ryan was a boss at playing (He can do trick shots and all sorts) I first played a solo game with Emily, which I won. Then we paired up and I went with Ryan. Ryan potted the white and black ball so Hannah and Emily won. We then went to the cinema, minus Ryan but plus one of our props friends, Chris. We sat their for a good hour waiting for the film to come on, only to find out that the cinema screen had broken. We got upgraded to 3D and a free cinema ticket. I mean, I would have been angry but I spent nearly the whole hour laughing so it wasnt too bad.

• It was the last social of the year on Saturday and Emily and I worked the door. Turns out we arent great to collect money when we're drinking. However, thanks to Hannah and Ryan being there I suppose we did an alright job. It was a sick night anyway. Katie Collins, Maxine Stacey, Ben Cipolla and Spice and the Readies played and as per usual they all had sick sets despite the fact that half of them were ill. We then went to 2 Pigs and actually socialized which was weird. I mean, it got MASSIVELY packed and we ended up staying in the smoking area. We also had to walk home a very drunk fresher. He made me give him a piggy back then fell off me. 

• We got one of our assignments out of the way. I only put it in that way because it went awful. I wish we could actually say that we didnt have enough material but I would be lying. It was a twenty minute presentation, and while I was half way through my section our lecturer told us we had 3 minutes left. I was mortified. However, after it finished Ellie, Emily and I went and had shots and pints in the SU and stumbled home half cut. 

• Ive spent a couple of afternoons in the park. It sounds so simple, but Pitville Park makes me far too happy. Its such a pretty park, and it has ducks and things. Its just a really nice park to walk around. So if any of you get the chance to take me, do it. You'll have an extremely happy Kirsten on your hands. 

I havnt really done much else but go out drinking, go to work placement and go to uni. I realised while looking through my recent posts that I havnt done my 5 little happies for a while so I thought I'd include them in this post aswell. I apologise in advance:

1. Carly Rae Jepsen has just released a new song. I know what you're all thinking or internally shouting at me.. "Kirsten, get some music taste!!!" However, if you have seen the music video for said song, you'll understand whole-heartedly. It involves Tom Hanks. Hes not my favourite actor, but he makes the whole video actually really good. I hate that im saying this, but its also a really catchy song. Like, the lyrics are so simple but I just really enjoy dancing around to it when im doing my make-up                                                                                                                                                                                                                          
2. Tumblr. Mostly the Chris Hemsworth tag. Im not sure this really needs an explanation. I just really enjoy looking at his face at the moment. Especially when hes playing Thor.
3. Once Upon a Time. If any of you watch this, you'll understand the feels. For whoever doesnt, get onto it. Theyre going through a Villains phase at the moment, so they're explaining the back stories of Maleficent, Cruella De Ville and Ursella. 
4. I have recently purchased a beautiful pair of Topshop sunglasses and I absolutely love them. Theyre a bit too big for my face, but I genuinely give no shits. Theyre navy and beautiful.
5. Hazelnut Machiatos from Starbucks. 

Thats it, I reckon. 

Hope you enjoyed this post. 

TTYL,

Kirst x

P.S: The reason for the title is that currently, im drowning in a mountain of uni work so I thought it was relevant. It probably isnt but who cares.

Positive minds live positive lives.

Hi, hi, hi :-)

I was on tumblr today (Too many of my blog posts start with this line) and saw something that got me thinking. The picture said, "How do you define yourself?" I started thinking about how I would define myself. I have been asked to describe myself in 3 words so often and the answers I usually come up with are "Giggly, loud and chatty" because thats what you do right? You build yourself up to other people so they don't see you as you would see yourself.

I mean, if I were truthful to people those 3 adjectives are definitely not what I would use to describe myself. What I'm trying to get at here is, I don't understand why the majority of ourselves would describe ourselves negatively. 

The 3 words I would probably describe myself truthfully are probably

1. Dull - I usually cannot see the appeal of wanting to keep a conversation with me going. I know that sounds awful and a lot of you would be thinking, why the hell am I reading this? This just sounds like another blog post where people start to think negatively of themselves because Kirsten has decided to do the same. I don't mean to make you feel like that I promise. Thats just how I see it. I sometimes find it extremely hard to carry a conversation, not because I'm not interested in what you have to say, but because I just generally cannot find the words to reply with. 
2. Attitudy - Again, another thing that I don't mean to be but sometimes it just happens. I generally feel like I need someone with me at all times to poke me when I'm being a stroppy little cow, because I don't know when I'm doing it. 
3. Sad - Again, another one of things where it looks like I'm being an attention seeking twat. Im not, its just how I would describe myself. Like, obviously I'm not sad ALL the time. But A lot of things make me sad. I don't like being left on my own for too long, I get really sad if I feel like I'm annoying people, which in turn starts me over thinking (please tell me other people do this).

This is why I've decided to start writing down the things that make me happy in a day. 

Today so far, Ive watched an episode of Top Gear which has had two really great things in. 

1) Richard Hammond

2)Maclaren MP4-12C [x] - click here to see the most beautiful car in the world. 

It's also a really beautiful day, so theres another positive thing. 

Also, its 7 days till I get to go home. Yay.

I'm just going to point out that I am trying to be a more positive person but when you've been negative you're whole life to save yourself being disappointed, its a really hard habit to break.  

Thats it, I think. 

Hope you all have a wonderful day.

TTYL,

Kirst x

A beautiful day begins with a beautiful mindset

Hi, hi,0 hi! 

Its only going to be a short one today.

Since people have left, ive literally done nothing. Ive gone to work placement, gone to actual work, gone to uni and slept. Sometimes I do need that because a exhausted Kirsten isnt a Kirsten people enjoy. But for this moment, I just need interaction. Like, dont get me wrong ive been as sociable as I can be given the circumstances. But from going from living with 6 other people, plus going to lectures and going out nearly every week to doing sod all is so hard, and kind of makes me feel a bit shit. 

For a couple of days, ive seen one of my favourite bloggers, Sprinkle of Glitter doing "10 mini happies" and thought doing this might benefit myself, as i'm finding it hard to stay happy at the moment. I'm thinking I might do this like a couple of times a week (lets see how long this carries on for) 

Im going to do 5, instead of 10. 

Here goes.

1. In work placement today, the managers dogs came into the office and one of them(A really hairy border collie) came and sat next to me for a good 10 minutes. I havnt had any proper animal interations for a good 3 months so it was lovely. 
2. I had the BEST shower when I got home, and I now smell of lemonade courtesy of Soap and Glory Sugar Crush. Its such a good smell. I also did a facemask and stuff and now my face feels lovely.
3. I stopped in tescos on the way home and bought some Jaffa Cake cookies, theyre extremely good. But I did counteract these cookies by only eating 2 apples today and a bottle of water today. 
4. I turned my tv on just in time to watch "27 dresses" which is one of the best films. It has Katherine Heigl in, who is one of my favourite actresses.
5. I spoke to my mamma and Cardiff friends today about when I go home next week, which im suuuuuuper excited about. Its going to be a great time. 

Well there you have it.

I might upload another one on Thursday/Friday.

We'll see.

Thats all folks, 

TTYL,

Kirst x

Count your life by smiles, not tears - John Lennon.

Hi :-)

I thought I'd do blog on happiness for you.

Why people feel happy, and what makes me happy.

I feel like i've already done a blog on what makes me happy but ah well. 

Deal with it!

hap•pi•ness

 (ˈhæp i nɪs) 

n.

1. the quality or state of being happy.

2. good fortune; pleasure; contentment; joy.

This is the definition on www.freedictionary.com

Yes, I had to google it. You know those days where you just don't have a clue why you're happy? Well thats how I felt this morning. I just couldn't pinpoint it. I didn't particularly have a great sleep. Yesterday wasn't that great either. I mean, I didn't have an AWFUL day, it just wasn't great. I found myself wondering why? Then I thought, maybe my mood is just foreshadowing today. And I can tell you, I have had a pretty good day so far. Well, I haven't come across anything that has pissed me off, or made me that teeniest bit sad. 

Im currently sat in a room, procrastination from doing any type of work, listening to one of the best playlists I've ever put together, drinking my second coffee, and looking at clothes that I can't afford. 

Why this is making me feel slightly more content I don't know? I genuinely can't explain it. 

I was reading this site on defining happiness and apparently it is actually possible, and researchers have actually been trying to prove this. Crazy right? 

They also have a framework for doing this.

They say that:

1) Happiness is made up of pleasure, engagement and meaning

2) It involves daily positive emotions, and a global sense that life is worthwhile

3) People can accurately reply their own levels of happiness

According to another website, happiness is when your life fulfills your needs. Now I've read that, I'm thinking, do we all have the same needs? I mean for me to feel fully happy I know what I would need. Like, have you ever thought about what your perfect day would be? If you could have, or do ANYTHING to ensure your happiness. What would you do?

Kirsten's perfect day:

• Wake up to breakfast in bed (From anyone, I'm not fussy)
• Have a bath.
• Go to the beach (assuming its sunny) 
• Come home, have cwtches with a kitten or ten. 
• Go shopping with my mam
• Have Nandos
• Go out drinking with my friends.

That day doesn't even seem too elaborate to me. Of course there could be a lot higher maintenance things in there, like maybe go to a foreign country or go and meet my favourite band. But since coming to University, I've realised that simple things like that are my absolute favourite things. 

Im now going to explain the 15 things that would make me excruciatingly happy.

1. Kittens. I am SUCH a cat lady it hurts. If someone wanted to put me in a room full of cats for my 22nd, you'd be my favourite person

2. Bubble baths with my favourite radox smell (Its the sleep easy one)

3. spending time with my family and friends

4. Sleep. This one is actually crucial to me being happy. I need at least 8 hours. 

5. Good make-up/hair days

6. Online shopping

7. Cwtches. 

8. Good lectures. Experience tells me that bad lectures = bad days. 

9. Scrolling through tumblr. This is mine []

10. Finding new bands. Todays new band is called "Cute is what we aim for" and if you like pop punk they will definitely be for you.

11. Inside jokes. "So, these walls ey?"

12. Lists.

13. Male attention. If anyone says any difference, id say they were either crazy or lying.

14. Completing a tv show I've been marathoning for ages (makes me equally as sad)

15. Blog writing.

Thats it, I reckon.

If you have me on Facebook, or follow me on twitter i'd be interested in finding out what things make you happy.

Thanks for reading.

TTYL,

Kirst x